There is a time for everything,
and a season for every activity under the heavens:
a time to be born and a time to die,
a time to plant and a time to uproot (Ecclesiastes 3:1,2)
As the wise Solomon once said, there is a time for everything in life. Every season that starts one day will end. We will only enjoy “eternal” when this life is over and we meet our Creator. In the meantime, everything that we can see and touch has an expiration date on it, one day it will end.
And I am now in between seasons in my life. One season has just ended, and a new one is about to begin…
I have already shared my difficulties with the high demands of my job and how I had been exhausted lately. I’ve been praying for a long time about it, and God responded with an answer I didn’t see it coming.
First, He talked to me through Scripture and also through Jon Acuff, Michael Hyatt, Mary DeMuth, Richard Stearns, Tony Alicea, John Saddington and other writers and bloggers.
He showed me that the real problem was not my job, not the company I worked for: the real problem was that I was no longer doing what I loved. My job was no longer my dream job. Everything that I enjoyed doing I had to do after work, and due to the fact that my work was very demanding, I had less and less energy to dedicate to the activities that I really enjoyed (including this blog), and that added to my frustration.
Although I searched, nothing else in my company excited me. No other jobs made me want to move to other department.
Talking to some friends and analyzing my situation (with the help of several articles I came across by the authors I mentioned) they helped me see that I wanted to rekindle a passion I had in my childhood years, when I dreamed of being a writer. Yes, you got that right. I was probably one of the very few 10-years-old child that dreamt of being a writer.
Other than that, I also felt a longing to help the less fortunate (check Matthew 25:35-40). But up until now, I considered both activities as things that I have been doing on my free time, so how could I make a living out of it? The answer: through faith.
God talked lots to me through Scripture about how He provides and I just needed to trust Him. Just trust Him.
So I decided to make the final decision during my vacation, to make sure that my mind was clear and rested. So I prayed, asked for more signs to confirm what I should do.
Then, with no doubt in my mind, I got back from my vacation and I took the big leap: I talked to my manager and I asked to quit my job.
Yes, that’s right. I quit my job even tough I had no other plans, just a yearning deep inside of me. When I did that, I felt like a huge weight was lifted off my shoulders. As the days passed, I felt that I did the right thing.
And I believe without a doubt that God will show the way when the time is right.
As for now, He wants me to get some rest. And wait…
In the meantime, I intend to dedicate more time to study His word, to read and to work with this blog. So you can expect some changes here too.
In my next post I will share some of the Scripture, books and articles that touched me deeply during my search. Stay tuned!